What’s goin on?

Wow it has been 2 months since my last post?! How can that be? I guess life gets in the way sometimes and there’s barely any time to sit and reflect. The past 2 months I have done a 6 week bootcamp challenge, as well as 6 weeks of barbell. I’ll post more details below! I have also put money down on two BIG things! It’s been crazy! 😜 I think one of my last posts I was talking about my fertility journey, but here’s the news-I’m not pregnant, unfortunately. Oh well gives me more time to travel & do things before coming a mom! Although I have been depressed about it and seeing all these pregnancy announcements, I know my day will come at the perfect time. #positivevibes

Back to my bootcamp challenge. So I signed up for this challenge to try and get back on track from gaining 30+ lbs this past year (thanks hormones & covid). All was well the first 2 weeks, but then a big snowstorm hit, and work got even busier and I was just stressed focusing on other things. I could not focus on working out every day and eating healthier (I.e. no fast food). I still worked out and went to boot camp, but I feel like I missed a lot of barbell classes (weightlifting). My weight then became stagnant. I was still loosing inches though so I guess I was building muscle from the workouts I did do! We got a week added on because of the snowstorm and so after the 7 weeks I ended up loosing maybe 2 lbs and 9.5 inches. Not as much as I was expecting and I still can’t fit into my pre-pandemic jeans. Due to some financial constraints, I decided to leave my bootcamp family and start working out a cheaper gym that’s only $10/month as well as some yoga classes here & there. The past few weeks after the challenge I went balls to the wall eating out all the time and not tracking any food. This helped my stress tremendously and I felt free. My butt and thighs thought otherwise in my jeans so this week I had to make a change! I ended up signing up for weight watchers so I can be more cognizant of what I eat and it’s only $21/month!

Okay let’s back track to my fertility journey. After January I was really hoping I would be pregnant. Then February came and I had missed my period! I kept testing and waiting and everything came back negative. I even when to the doctor and got a blood test that was also negative. It super bummed me out. So my husband and I discussed it and decided to stop tracking everything and actively trying for a few months. We also do not want a Christmas baby so that aligns with our scheduling 😂 but if we were to get pregnant now and it was a December baby, I mean we’ll take whatever we can get! Well after my missed February period I stopped tracking my temperature and ovulation. I was still stressed out from some other things and I got super obsessive tracking my food. So much that I would try and stay under my calories and not really get any food to fuel my body-just constantly worrying about how much protein I was getting. This did a number on my mental health and my past eating disorders tried to come in and take over. But then on the weekends when I was with Steve I would binge and binge and binge. I was back to disordered eating and I was stressed and depressed. You don’t wanna be in that mindset trying to get pregnant either! So I knew I needed to try and relax and stop tracking everything. And what do you know a day after I stopped worrying and tracking I got my period! It had been over 60 days! But now I am feeling a lot better and with the weight watchers I don’t track my calories I’m just more conscious of what foods are better for me and which are zero points. Also I’m realizing how some of my favorite healthy snacks are not as healthy as I thought 🙃

I have started working out with my oldest friend since she moved back to Oklahoma! It has been a blast after hardly getting to see her the past 5 years! Now I get to see her multiple times a week and it feels like old times! With spring’s arrival I feel like things are moving in the right direction and I’m excited for what’s to come! 🌸🌺🍄🌱☀️

2 lbs & 9.5 inches down

Ready for the World

Okay so one thing about me is I like music. I used to be obsessed with the song ‘Oh Sheila’ and ‘Love you down’ by Ready for the World. Now I was born in ‘91 but I’ve always loved 80s music…every kind! EXCEPT do not play ‘Africa’ by Toto around me or I will get angry. Any way, where am I going with this? Oh yea, the point of this post I titled ‘Ready for the World’. I’m trying to start writing down my thoughts and experiences through my fertile journey. I have been with my husband 8 years, but only married for 1. We have both wanted kids since day one but wanted to be financially and mentally ready for kids so they’d have a good life. Well that time has finally come! I am pretty mentally stable even though I have bipolar II disorder, anxiety, and PTSD. I also am now 6 years into my career and feel like I could provide a life for my kids like my parents did for me. So we decided I would stop taking birth control in October 2020 and start ‘trying to conceive’ (TTC for short). I have started tracking my basal body temperature (BBT) and taking ovulation LH tests every afternoon. I have also tried to eat better more nutrient rich food. I have been eating Vegan since October so I am also taking multivitamins and prenatal vitamins to get those other nutrients I would get from meat, eggs, and dairy. I started making fertility shakes which is basically berries, coconut milk, spinach, plant protein powder, maca, hemp seed hearts, and ground flaxseed! I’ll share my recipe below! It’s yummy 😋 Today, I’m on day 12 of my cycle so I’m supposed to ovulate around day 15. That means it’s time for a fun weekend if you know what I mean haha. The next two weeks as I wait to see if I’m in fact pregnant will be so hard! I’m starting to look into things to get my mind off it. I’m going to go back to bootcamp to help me on the health journey so I can have a healthy pregnancy when I actually do get pregnant. Last month I was for sure I was pregnant and then that dreaded day came when I started the morning after I bought some pregnancy tests. I was so annoyed and frustrated. I know I may have difficulty getting pregnant due to my endometriosis and PCOS(poly cystic ovarian syndrome). But I thought maybe I wouldn’t have any issues and I’d get pregnant right away! A girl can dream, right? Either way if it takes awhile I will be ready to bring a child into this world.

FERTILITY SMOOTHIE

1. Add a big handful of your greens! Could be spinach (my favorite since you can’t really taste it), kale, or chard.

2. Add about 3/4 cup of berries (fresh or frozen). Try to use berries like black berries, blueberries,raspberries, cherries, and strawberries. Try to avoid adding sugary fruits like bananas and mangos. (I’ll add another yummy green smoothie one of these days that have all the island fruits!)

3. Add 1 cup of your milk or water. I prefer unsweetened coconut milk or oat milk. You can also use unsweetened almond milk, but try to avoid soy milk and dairy cow milk since you are supposed to avoid soy and dairy when TTC. You can also just use water or coconut water/ice, but I like mine more creamy.

4. Add 1 or 2 scoops of protein powder. This can be vanilla or unflavored, but I like the vanilla pea protein for taste! I avoid whey at all costs because it is dairy and upsets my stomach. I use plant protein/pea protein because it’s easier on my stomach and has many health benefits!

5. Add your fat and/or fiber! I use 1 tablespoon of ground flaxseed (make sure it is ground because whole flaxseed do not absorb in your body to give you the nutrients), hemp hearts, hemp seeds, or chia seeds.

6. Add 1 tablespoon of maca powder. Maca is a superfood for fertility! It is also an aphrodisiac. It also helps with stamina and libido. A few fertility benefits are improved sperm count, hormone balance, and erectile disfunction. All of things help with what you need to make a baby naturally, so do with that information what you will! 😉

7. Blend everything up & serve! Both women & men can drink this to help your fertility and chances of getting pregnant! And plus it’s yummy!!